Yummy Banana Cake!

Well, this is comfort food..for my husband!! He had been asking for banana cake for so longg  that I decided to bake one just for him! As soon as the cake_bake_smell started spreading in the air,I could see a naughty sparkle in my hubs eyes!! :D

My Comfort Zone ?

I have tried to ignore all those loud noises inside of me to move my a$$ out of my zone of "comfort",and try to change something in my life!!

Sigh!

It is easier to ignore those voices,though day by day they are becoming louder and yesss add the growing guilt of ?!

I have a "basic" job with no promotions !! I know,I struggle to work here.There is no motivation to grow,no good pay even,but yet I have grown roots here :P and now unable to move further.

Well,options ? Replanting myself ?Oh,what if I wilt further ?Then its too late,now with a responsibility of "N" and "R" (of course) I don't see a point in change!!

I am very very comfortable where I am right now.No,I am not.Or am I ?

Voices in my head!!

Perfume: The Story of a Murderer

Language  :  English

My Rating :  4/5

My Take    :  The first thing I did after finishing the movie was to smell myself  :D. Sounds crazy...isn't it ?. The movie made me think about my most under utilized sense..."Smell".It was not until I watched this movie,that made me realize how lost I am in the vast world of aroma.I could therafter identify anything by the distinct smell associated with it after watching the movie.

Now we all can smell, but how can you preserve the distinct smell of every object we come across ?Is there a smell which can be the ultimate fragrance in this world ? Can any one ever create such a wonder aroma ?

These were the quest of the protagonist in the movie,played brilliantly by Ben Whishaw.

It's not much of a thriller as it claims to be, but yes one will be glued to the movie till the end.

IMDB

My Happiness

Every smallest of activity I do with my little ’N’ gives me happiness.No,nothing has given me more happiness in my life than the growing up with my little one.

That tinge of spreading smile when she finds me right next her when she searches for me makes me happy with pride.

Her tiny hip shaking to Shakira’s song gives me bouts of laughter!

Her way of displaying a naughty wink when she about to do some mischief

When she finally succeeds in matching words with animals

When she opens her mouth for one more spoon of food ;)..

Like the other day when she was able to climb all the way upstairs of our home without my help!

Her tata-bybye-mmmuuuaaahh..see you..Oh I can go on…

Ever since little one has come to our life,every day,every moment has been happiness.I was transformed in such a way that everything I do,I am able to find/give maximum happiness!!

Even when I’am writing this post!! :)

The one book that made me sad!

Though there are many books that had made me sad,this book made me realise how much can the humanity degrade,that was one of a kind of sadness I experienced.!!.It made me so insecure as well,the thought that one mad leader and his charming speeches can make our world a living hell.This book is a poignant read on holocaust!

And I read it during my college days and quite incidentally was all alone at the hostel due a scare of chicken pox ;).I believe that situation added to the melancholy of the book!

Transformation...

I was in pitch dark,

    Drowning deep

I was suffocating

    The death looming beside

I kept holding onto

    That something 

Which no longer existed

I forget to count the days and nights

    And then came another day

I chose to open my eyes

   Slowly darkness left me

I chose to stop my tears

   Steadily I hit the rock bottom

I was alone

   In that scary place

Looking above that deep dungeon

   I saw the blue sky

The fluttering  

   Of birds, trees and butterflies

The swaying fragrance of 

   blooming white lilies

And I decide to move on...

Monday Blues!

For a few days now,I have been feeling terrible...from within me.I was(still am) feeling bitter,worried,sad etc.Its like all of emotions inclusive of happiness bottled up inside me waiting to burst out,the pressure is tremendous.Its a new horizon of feelings and sometimes it makes me wonder  "Am i depressed  ?? ;) "

I am kind of struggling to comprehend whats happening around me.The year till now was a roller coster drive and I think its all getting accumulated fast,faster!!In this course,I have knowingly or unknowingly hurt my dears ones.And I keep on apologising without knowing where or how to change the course of my life!

Sigh!

That being said,is one of the main contributors of my bottling_up_emotions.Well,I believe,no one would longer believe me if I keep up with this trend!! I have to somehow pull myself out from this phase!

Wish me luck! :)

The Song

Caller   :: "Hello"

Anchor :: "Hello and Welcome to "A Song of Your Choice" May I know who is calling ??

Caller   :: I am Mohan.

Anchor :: Hello Mohan,Thank you for calling to "Your Favourite Song".Tell us Mohan,where are you calling from ?

Caller   :: I am calling from Cheppadu.

Anchor :: Cheppadu..hmm near the scenic Allepy right.Well,have you called us before Mohan ?

Caller   :: No,I am calling for the first time.But I listen to your program without fail.

Anchor :: Oh,Thank you Mohan, Its always a pleasure to play the favorite songs of callers like you.So you like listening to songs ?

A book that makes me happy :)

As there is no point in talking about the favourite book from my favourite series,I shall share you about that book which makes me happy, All the time :)



This is the book which transformed me from a just-another-book-reader to a book-worm,at an age about 12-13.

A friend of mine bought this book to our class.Just to show off :P,the kind of books she was reading.Anyways,I also got a peek of the green cover and the small snippet of the story behind the book cover.

"Baammm....I was hooked ".

I wanted to know Totto-chan.

I wanted to read the book somehow.But my friend was in no mood to lend me the book,so that I can read at home.She said,"Mom will scold me for not bringing back the book".

I cajoled,tried to bribe her..even literally begged her to lend me the book.Now to think about it,I didn't know why I behaved so :).Anyways,my friend took pity on me and said she will bring the book the next day as well.Since that day we had some function at school,and there were no class,I could read it :).

Even today,I can vividly see myself bound by that feeling of being able to read Totto-chan the very next day.My restlessness even got me scoldings from my mamma :P.

Next day,I finished the book in like about 3 hours (if i remember correctly,I'm old now :P).That day I realised,

I love books, I am a spreader and most importantly I can do anything I wanted,if I really want it ;) ;)

The book,its green cover,the school,various incidents that happen there,the head master..and most importantly Totto-chan ,everything is still etched in my head.

Every time,after reading a book which made me happy,I realise I can never be happier than the day on which I finished Totto-chan! I am still looking for a book that can bring me the same feelings,I felt after reading Totto-chan :)

Good Byes!

It was late in afternoon and the railway station was flocked with people boarding and departing their trains.

"Thank God" he screamed. We are on time.
"Come on now, run!!,we need to get to the coach as soon as possible".

For past 2 hours we were trying against all odds to reach the Central station and board the Mail.

He went ahead of me with the luggage. It was hard trying to keep up with him. As I tried to run behind him, I knew something was not right. There was an uneasiness in my body and my mind.

Inside the Bubble

In response to The Daily Post's writing prompt: "Inside the Bubble."

A month for me,just by me and only with me :)

Lets see,I would definitely pack a book or two.Not more.The ones which I always wanted to read,but never had that urge to read ;)!

I would also pack a few of art /craft works that I would love to complete

Ahh..then there is my ultra secret dream project which is in my head and a month of clutter free time would help me to finally piece my ideas together.

How can I forget Sleep ? I would sleep like a log if I get such a golden chance.Thanks to my lil 'N' :D

Now if I get to cook,I would definitely have a different menu for dinner everyday!

Well,it would great if I had access only to a basic phone to call me dear ones and if there is a view to wake upto :)

Bliss!

My Favourite Book Series ?

Well,much to my surprise and dismay,I realise that I have never read a complete book series !!! :D

Yes,not even the famous Harry Potter Series :)

A book that I have read for more than 3 times..

Well,there are many books which I have read,re-read for more than three times.Then there is,

Randamoozham



which I can keep on reading for any number of times :)

This book is a masterpiece.

Its one of a kind.

And this is the besets book I have ever read! :)

The guts to retell the story of "Mahabharata" which practically every one in this country grew up hearing and to be able to convince or at least put in doubt, almost everyone that his version is truer,that is simply the sheer brilliance of the M.T.

Giving a twist,Bheema becomes the protagonist in this story and the entire tale is told from his perspective.It includes his  joys, sadness, frustrations,vengeance.

Best book I read last year!

Undoubtedly it is "Chaos: Making a New Science by James Gleick".



I bought this book on a whim during an annual sale of books @amazon.Even though the book was of the genre which I would never have thought of reading :),I certainly did not make any mistake in picking this up!

This book has definitely led me to find a pattern in everything that is chaotic.I was hooked onto this little devil right from the start and each chapter is packed with such information,that I admit James Gleick  has done a marvellous job in giving me an introduction to The Chaos Theory!.

30 Day Book Challenge!

I am so very happy to finally dive into this 30 Day Book Challenge,telling all about my favourite books,characters,authors :) in my favourite place!!

Decisions,Decisions

In response to The Daily Post's writing prompt: "Decisions, Decisions."

This prompt made me think real hard on how I make decisions...

Err..not just "life changing ones" but also the small ones like waking up at certain hour..or whether to eat or not to eat that yummy snack right in front of me...or may be what I want to wear to office.

Uff,I think...making and keeping decisions is unknowingly taking up a huge chunk of my time!!

I believe most of my decisions are not throughly thought through or can it be that I am just unable to keep up with them ??

Many of the times when I take a decision I think through it both pros and cons.Then make a very very detailed plan which does take up a huge amount of time but only to abandon the decision and its consequences all together in just few days / hours / minutes.This is happening even if i start obtaining the results I want.Sigh!! The vicious cycle follows!

At other times I just choose randomly..like a thoughtless process..No..no,it does not involve any gut feelings :P

And almost every other time,I simply follow the instructions given by dear ones.I just ask my mom,what should I wear to office,she suggests something which I simply do it without bothering.Then sometimes I ask my dad if I should actualy eat that yummy snack..he says "Why not ?" There I go!!

Hmmm,may be this is what making me lazy and unproductive in decision making?

Ouch,this hurts!!!