"Even the loud waves crashing on the shore could not yet beat the deafening silence she left behind."
Note: Somehow for me, the above sentence feels complete!
In response to the Daily Prompts : Silence
Showing posts with label Chaotic Thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Chaotic Thoughts. Show all posts
Tuesday, 20 September 2016
Thursday, 1 September 2016
Fear
I fear,
The whispers of peers
The coughs of strangers
I fear,
The loneliness in the crowd
And the suffocation in familiarity
I fear,
The ambitions and dreams I have
Not that I won't achieve,but what If I achieve them ?
I fear,
I die without a legacy
I might never try t build one!
I fear,
I am brittle and is crushed by loved ones
But I know,I am strong enough to face a storm
I fear,
I knowingly choose the path
Though I knew,I wanted to go the less travelled one
I fear,
I die without a reason
I live every day,dying inside
I am not sure what I fear about! I know deep inside of me that I am capable of chasing and achieving my dreams and aspirations but the fear of moving and achieving is killing me.It hurts!! I ignore all those that things that maketh me.I ignore those feelings that scream to me and say,come one with me.
I choose to ignore and search for something which I know does not exists!
The whispers of peers
The coughs of strangers
I fear,
The loneliness in the crowd
And the suffocation in familiarity
I fear,
The ambitions and dreams I have
Not that I won't achieve,but what If I achieve them ?
I fear,
I die without a legacy
I might never try t build one!
I fear,
I am brittle and is crushed by loved ones
But I know,I am strong enough to face a storm
I fear,
I knowingly choose the path
Though I knew,I wanted to go the less travelled one
I fear,
I die without a reason
I live every day,dying inside
I am not sure what I fear about! I know deep inside of me that I am capable of chasing and achieving my dreams and aspirations but the fear of moving and achieving is killing me.It hurts!! I ignore all those that things that maketh me.I ignore those feelings that scream to me and say,come one with me.
I choose to ignore and search for something which I know does not exists!
Thursday, 4 August 2016
A Forensic Doctor
"Caught Redhanded" read the headlines.It reported the capture of a sexual predator while in a horrendous act of molestation.He also pleaded guilty to several such acts in and around the area.
My thoughts wandered to the day,I had to forcibly open a pair of red hands,smeared in blood,pleading for a release.
I am a forensic doctor.
Day 4 of
My thoughts wandered to the day,I had to forcibly open a pair of red hands,smeared in blood,pleading for a release.
I am a forensic doctor.
Day 4 of
Wednesday, 3 August 2016
Fragile
A beautiful memory was sealed with a twinkle in your eyes and a "Yes",of that day,when I took your hand and declared my love.
A beautiful memory was sealed with a tear in your eyes of that day when we had our baby.
A beautiful memory was sealed with pride in your eyes of that day when we built our home.
We built so many moments and memories to share for a lifetime.
But,today,after so many years of togetherness,it breaks my heart to look into your empty eyes eroded off the moments we spent together.
Yet,I realize that maybe tomorrow there is a hope of blooms filling with the fragrance of our time together.
Memories are so frail,their essence is lost if we have none to share in our fragile lives...
Day 3 of
A beautiful memory was sealed with a tear in your eyes of that day when we had our baby.
A beautiful memory was sealed with pride in your eyes of that day when we built our home.
We built so many moments and memories to share for a lifetime.
But,today,after so many years of togetherness,it breaks my heart to look into your empty eyes eroded off the moments we spent together.
Yet,I realize that maybe tomorrow there is a hope of blooms filling with the fragrance of our time together.
Memories are so frail,their essence is lost if we have none to share in our fragile lives...
Day 3 of
Tuesday, 2 August 2016
Do you really know?!
The white lilies
or silver cups of poison ?
Yellow dreamy sunflowers
or a little sun in every single flower ?
The lovely fairy tailed fishes
or our lives just before we are born ?
An old withered and a sprawling tree
or a lonely person simply waiting for a friend ?
Deep intriguing starry night sky
or a picture printed by our firing neurons ?
A tip of an iceberg
or the deck of an underground empire ?
A gushy cold wind on face
or the breath of an unreturned soul ?
A streak of sunlight admist the rain
or a hug of mother consoling her son ?
A hue of paint on an canvas
or the mind of wandering persona ?
An angry conversation with a loved one
or sadness due to inability of ones self ?
A pale blue dot.
or one among the pale dots in the entire universe ?
Are you living your life in a dream ?
or are you living your own dream ?
Tell me do you really know,
what you don't know ?
Day 2 of
or silver cups of poison ?
Yellow dreamy sunflowers
or a little sun in every single flower ?
The lovely fairy tailed fishes
or our lives just before we are born ?
An old withered and a sprawling tree
or a lonely person simply waiting for a friend ?
Deep intriguing starry night sky
or a picture printed by our firing neurons ?
A tip of an iceberg
or the deck of an underground empire ?
A gushy cold wind on face
or the breath of an unreturned soul ?
A streak of sunlight admist the rain
or a hug of mother consoling her son ?
A hue of paint on an canvas
or the mind of wandering persona ?
An angry conversation with a loved one
or sadness due to inability of ones self ?
A pale blue dot.
or one among the pale dots in the entire universe ?
Are you living your life in a dream ?
or are you living your own dream ?
Tell me do you really know,
what you don't know ?
Day 2 of
Monday, 1 August 2016
Born Again ?
A dark cave,in the middle of nowhere
And I don't remember how I came here ?
It's filthy,dungeon and smells like pee
And I wonder how long before I see
The wonderful,horizon beyond the sea
Huddled in despair of unknown
I was crying, but my tears, bygone
It felt like flying among stars with no breath
It felt like a rainbow of thousand colors
It felt like tiny snowflakes in summer
It felt like a weird connection between life and death
I felt in me,the emotions,I never knew
And then,I dropped under my weight
A touch,a snob,a tear or two and the smell
A familiarity loomed somewhere in there
So did light from a thousand moon's
As I glanced the moon,I saw a door
Hoping for an exit from this nightmare,I rose
But an urge to look back took me for a surprise
An entirety of my life flashed in seconds of time
As the cave lighted up my memories,
like the jellyfishes of a calm sea
I realized,I am more alive than ever before
Sure,I am ready for my next adventure
To make new life from being dead...
Sometimes,death is stranger than fiction :)
And I don't remember how I came here ?
It's filthy,dungeon and smells like pee
And I wonder how long before I see
The wonderful,horizon beyond the sea
Huddled in despair of unknown
I was crying, but my tears, bygone
It felt like flying among stars with no breath
It felt like a rainbow of thousand colors
It felt like tiny snowflakes in summer
It felt like a weird connection between life and death
I felt in me,the emotions,I never knew
And then,I dropped under my weight
A touch,a snob,a tear or two and the smell
A familiarity loomed somewhere in there
So did light from a thousand moon's
As I glanced the moon,I saw a door
Hoping for an exit from this nightmare,I rose
But an urge to look back took me for a surprise
An entirety of my life flashed in seconds of time
As the cave lighted up my memories,
like the jellyfishes of a calm sea
I realized,I am more alive than ever before
Sure,I am ready for my next adventure
To make new life from being dead...
Sometimes,death is stranger than fiction :)
Monday, 4 July 2016
Underrated Pleasures :)
That catch of blood sucking mosquito
That timely hold of a falling cup
That final full stop at the end of a long thesis
That sweaty finish to daily workout
That compiling of the age old program
That first scoop of vanilla ice cream
That fragrance of the new book
That quick awareness of having longer hours to alarm
That moment when my baby sleeps :)
That window seat in a long journey
That bursting of bubbles in the wrapper
That small gap of time to relive your itchiness
That realization of a long weekend :)
That this list is never going to end
In response to the Daily Prompt "Pleasure"
That timely hold of a falling cup
That final full stop at the end of a long thesis
That sweaty finish to daily workout
That compiling of the age old program
That first scoop of vanilla ice cream
That fragrance of the new book
That quick awareness of having longer hours to alarm
That moment when my baby sleeps :)
That window seat in a long journey
That bursting of bubbles in the wrapper
That small gap of time to relive your itchiness
That realization of a long weekend :)
That this list is never going to end
In response to the Daily Prompt "Pleasure"
Friday, 1 July 2016
Cloud Art
I always had this thought,
" Clouds must be a very vast canvas of that strange artist who has got such talent to simply mould them into spectacular pieces of art.When the colours, hues from sunlight,water drops,ions in the sky are incorporated into them,Master pieces are born!!
And we are simply bound to be spell bounded by thou art! "
In response to Daily Prompt "Clouds"
" Clouds must be a very vast canvas of that strange artist who has got such talent to simply mould them into spectacular pieces of art.When the colours, hues from sunlight,water drops,ions in the sky are incorporated into them,Master pieces are born!!
And we are simply bound to be spell bounded by thou art! "
In response to Daily Prompt "Clouds"
Thursday, 16 June 2016
Ah..that word...
I have a million of things to write about and about hundreds of them make to my drafts.And I post only a handful of them.
Does that show I don't value what I write ? Do I feel my words are not worthy of an audience? Why do I keep on mercilessly edit and reframe the sentences ? Why can't I just write down all that passes through my head,shoulders,knees and toes ?
Well, some will read the entire thing while some will simply scan.Some may even comment.I always have this fear of not being able to write up to a standard I have set for myself.Sometimes,I even feel so very drained out after replying to a comment.Does that show my need for perfect pieces ? My head says "Naah..you are just being paranoid" and my heart says.. it is because I am too attached to the writing and I want to excel in it! But the more I try to hold myself, I feel like I might loose the interest to make wordy things in my world!
And then one day might come,when I will no longer be able to write anything! Ah..the perfect word that summons my thoughts : "Writer Block"
Those words,
Emotionally wrecking
Deepening wounds
Inflicting mind
Some are burned
Some are crude
It's stuck,somewhere
And everywhere
In my heart ?
Or In my gut ?
And I try hard
To force them out
Nothing,but
A bundle of words,
Falls right in here...
Does that show I don't value what I write ? Do I feel my words are not worthy of an audience? Why do I keep on mercilessly edit and reframe the sentences ? Why can't I just write down all that passes through my head,shoulders,knees and toes ?
Well, some will read the entire thing while some will simply scan.Some may even comment.I always have this fear of not being able to write up to a standard I have set for myself.Sometimes,I even feel so very drained out after replying to a comment.Does that show my need for perfect pieces ? My head says "Naah..you are just being paranoid" and my heart says.. it is because I am too attached to the writing and I want to excel in it! But the more I try to hold myself, I feel like I might loose the interest to make wordy things in my world!
And then one day might come,when I will no longer be able to write anything! Ah..the perfect word that summons my thoughts : "Writer Block"
Those words,
Emotionally wrecking
Deepening wounds
Inflicting mind
Some are burned
Some are crude
It's stuck,somewhere
And everywhere
In my heart ?
Or In my gut ?
And I try hard
To force them out
Nothing,but
A bundle of words,
Falls right in here...
Friday, 20 May 2016
A status!
I am quite sad.To say the truth,I am very depressed.A lot of expectations and dreams have come crashing down.And I am unable to find a way out of it.I hoped for a better year for us a family since the new year,but somehow the happy formula always eludes us.There is always something to worry about or being sad.Sometimes its "N" illness and at other times, it's my work.
I have always been a hard worker in my life.Not a smart one.The hard one.A resilient one.I have toiled enormous amounts of hours reading,understanding subjects and writing exams which I clear.Yes of course with flying colors.But the losses were more.And the margin of loss was so very small.That hurt me the most.I lost an opportunity to study my favorite subject for graduation and ended up taking the most hated one! I lost opportunity to clear the most prestigious exam in the coutry just by 5 marks!! I ended up in a mediocre company with virtually non growing salary but a job nonetheless.I have kind of lost hope and I know I have settled for less,very less than what I dreamed of.Yet,I hoped for a better life once I settled with my family,but somehow the happy formula always eludes us.There is always something to worry about or being sad.Sometimes its "N" illness and at other times, it's my work.
I will eventually find out something but I am worried I am running out of time.I feel I will become obsolete.Though I had no control over the happening of any one of these life problems and sadness that has afflicted me and my life,I still feel helpless.And I am at times mad at myself for not taking action on things which could have steered my life in a different direction.I simply ignored those decisions which would have actually made a difference.I think being comfortable was the culprit there.It is the most important silent killer of all aspirations and dreams I had in life.
Sigh! A friend of mine once told me I am resilient.And I know its one of the essential characters needed in life.But I think "grit" is more essential.Most needed one,I hope to take charge of my life and toil, even more, harder.Yes,years have flown by.But I still have promises to keep to myself.
I have always been a hard worker in my life.Not a smart one.The hard one.A resilient one.I have toiled enormous amounts of hours reading,understanding subjects and writing exams which I clear.Yes of course with flying colors.But the losses were more.And the margin of loss was so very small.That hurt me the most.I lost an opportunity to study my favorite subject for graduation and ended up taking the most hated one! I lost opportunity to clear the most prestigious exam in the coutry just by 5 marks!! I ended up in a mediocre company with virtually non growing salary but a job nonetheless.I have kind of lost hope and I know I have settled for less,very less than what I dreamed of.Yet,I hoped for a better life once I settled with my family,but somehow the happy formula always eludes us.There is always something to worry about or being sad.Sometimes its "N" illness and at other times, it's my work.
I will eventually find out something but I am worried I am running out of time.I feel I will become obsolete.Though I had no control over the happening of any one of these life problems and sadness that has afflicted me and my life,I still feel helpless.And I am at times mad at myself for not taking action on things which could have steered my life in a different direction.I simply ignored those decisions which would have actually made a difference.I think being comfortable was the culprit there.It is the most important silent killer of all aspirations and dreams I had in life.
Sigh! A friend of mine once told me I am resilient.And I know its one of the essential characters needed in life.But I think "grit" is more essential.Most needed one,I hope to take charge of my life and toil, even more, harder.Yes,years have flown by.But I still have promises to keep to myself.
Saturday, 9 April 2016
Haunted...
An old blue silk saree, adorns her body
A thin gold chain around her neck
Her hands filled with red bangles
Her dark kohl filled black eyes
Dreams about her future life
Her smile,brightens the hopes
She was a beauty!
And there he stood,her saviour
Until today he was no one
But after today he is the one
Non describable was he, but his act
Will be the talk for years to come
To marry the girl,whose innocence was robbed
And was sold as cheap old gold
Her eyes were in tears of happiness
She turned back to see her friends
Their gleaming eyes filled with hope
For a day like this might come
A release from this wretched life
A wedding so rare,thus happened !
With blessings and well wishes
She moved on with him
A new home and hopeful new world
She took care of him and so did he
They loved each other
In a way no one else can
She was safe with him
Away from those stares and ogles
And from the haunted memories
In every moment spend with him
Only to be interrupted,
By the knocks at their door
Quoting prices for her
He , neither could she tolerate
She was reminded of her old life
As she walked the streets
The ladies and the kids
Stayed away from her
People talk and talk
Spreading news of all kind
She could tolerate,but not him
His eyes oozed the pain
Of an unfulfilled promise
She cried,cried and cried
And then finally decided
From better or worse
She could never be with him
Her life is a simply a mirage
And returned to her old home
Where all those gloomy eyes
Absorbed her sorrow
And the realisation of their life.
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A thin gold chain around her neck
Her hands filled with red bangles
Her dark kohl filled black eyes
Dreams about her future life
Her smile,brightens the hopes
She was a beauty!
And there he stood,her saviour
Until today he was no one
But after today he is the one
Non describable was he, but his act
Will be the talk for years to come
To marry the girl,whose innocence was robbed
And was sold as cheap old gold
Her eyes were in tears of happiness
She turned back to see her friends
Their gleaming eyes filled with hope
For a day like this might come
A release from this wretched life
A wedding so rare,thus happened !
With blessings and well wishes
She moved on with him
A new home and hopeful new world
She took care of him and so did he
They loved each other
In a way no one else can
She was safe with him
Away from those stares and ogles
And from the haunted memories
In every moment spend with him
Only to be interrupted,
By the knocks at their door
Quoting prices for her
He , neither could she tolerate
She was reminded of her old life
As she walked the streets
The ladies and the kids
Stayed away from her
People talk and talk
Spreading news of all kind
She could tolerate,but not him
His eyes oozed the pain
Of an unfulfilled promise
She cried,cried and cried
And then finally decided
From better or worse
She could never be with him
Her life is a simply a mirage
And returned to her old home
Where all those gloomy eyes
Absorbed her sorrow
And the realisation of their life.
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Tuesday, 5 April 2016
Discrepancy !
He was the head of "The Company".To be precise,he was the only employee of his company.He just had revamped his largest system of records and he had a lot of pending work.His upgrade was to make sure that the information was stored with utmost security.He could trust none.
“One hell of a job to manage all these records!!”.He felt frustrated.A few hours into tracking and loading the new system,he could not find the any relation or place for some 21,000 records.He was confused.
"Were these records previously present or did he make mistakes ?"
He was too lazy to check his backup data and rather found the easy way,deleting all the mismatched records.Well,he was being the boss.
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All news channels were flashing the latest news - Japan hit by a massive earthquake of magnitude 8.9 and followed by a destructive Tsunami.Almost 3000 people feared dead.
Few days later - The count increased to 21,000.
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“Yeah, pretty much settled ”. He smiled.
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Note : Being creative ;)
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“One hell of a job to manage all these records!!”.He felt frustrated.A few hours into tracking and loading the new system,he could not find the any relation or place for some 21,000 records.He was confused.
"Were these records previously present or did he make mistakes ?"
He was too lazy to check his backup data and rather found the easy way,deleting all the mismatched records.Well,he was being the boss.
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All news channels were flashing the latest news - Japan hit by a massive earthquake of magnitude 8.9 and followed by a destructive Tsunami.Almost 3000 people feared dead.
Few days later - The count increased to 21,000.
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“Yeah, pretty much settled ”. He smiled.
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Note : Being creative ;)
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Monday, 4 April 2016
Chaos of my mind...
Here lies beneath me, the reason
A reason,why my days and my nights
Are filled with bloody clouds
from where only red blood rain falls
When and ever I look up,I see him
The God,with a red hot rod
He ordered me to find "The One"
Who had sworn to spill my blood
And then fill me with his evilness
I ignored the voice at first
I ignored his grant appearances
I kept running,my eyes wide open
I could not hide from him
Even the sleep alluded me
I could no longer ignore,
Nor could I run any longer
I realised the day has to come
To kill the devil for good
I reached his door step
I saw a reflection of myself
It was my face and features
The God whispered,
"He is the one,who pollutes your world"
"He is the little angel who suck your blood"
The evil God growled at me,
Kill him and free yourself…
I hammered him once,
I hammered him once more
There he lies underneath me
Blood oozing out from him
and drenching me in full
He was dead and now I am free
The voice in my head went quiet
And so did the appearances of evil god
*********************************************
It rained water that evening .
And my sky was clear...
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Note : A whole of new type of work began at my office,which is quite chaotic !! at this beginning stage :D
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A reason,why my days and my nights
Are filled with bloody clouds
from where only red blood rain falls
When and ever I look up,I see him
The God,with a red hot rod
He ordered me to find "The One"
Who had sworn to spill my blood
And then fill me with his evilness
I ignored the voice at first
I ignored his grant appearances
I kept running,my eyes wide open
I could not hide from him
Even the sleep alluded me
I could no longer ignore,
Nor could I run any longer
I realised the day has to come
To kill the devil for good
I reached his door step
I saw a reflection of myself
It was my face and features
The God whispered,
"He is the one,who pollutes your world"
"He is the little angel who suck your blood"
The evil God growled at me,
Kill him and free yourself…
I hammered him once,
I hammered him once more
There he lies underneath me
Blood oozing out from him
and drenching me in full
He was dead and now I am free
The voice in my head went quiet
And so did the appearances of evil god
*********************************************
It rained water that evening .
And my sky was clear...
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Note : A whole of new type of work began at my office,which is quite chaotic !! at this beginning stage :D
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Thursday, 31 March 2016
March Marched Away...
Leaving me lazier than ever!!
The sultry march was so longg...as if in a deep slumber to protect itself from the growing heat of summer.Yet,she did bring me a few good things ,
Now April is here,so will be the "New Year" as per our traditions.This month used to bring a lot of happiness,get togethers of families,yellow flowers,unniyappams,ah....Though days are going to be hotter,I can feel the numbness of being a grown up!!
The sultry march was so longg...as if in a deep slumber to protect itself from the growing heat of summer.Yet,she did bring me a few good things ,
- Finally it came to me as a big relief that I was misdiagnosed.It all started with a wrong blood report,on the basis of which medicines were administrated to me,which in turn threw my health out of balance!!I had a massive weight gain,hair thinning,mood swings,dizziness,heart burns,ulcers....etc.And I stopped taking the medicines based on my gut feeling and voila,every single health issue subsided the next day and vanished within a week :).Now,back to normal.Though this did affect my blog posts but nonetheless,a healthy body is most important!
- At work,no work!! :).We had a whole month of free time,due to our client being on his paternity leave and our project being on maintenance mode.And I lazily spend the entire month surfing the internet,FB,WP Blogs,Quora.And the finally deactivated all accounts except for blogs here.Well,I am at peace
- My girl,is all grown up and will be at a summer camp next week to reduce her boredom at home.When we started looking for play schools for here,for one of the so called best school in my area,apparently,2 years is age-over for day care and she has to take "extra classes" to catch up when she starts actual school at June.Well,I decided that my girl would never be taking any stupid extra classes to grow up.
- And here at blogs,I had the maximum views,comments and visitors since this blog has started,which has made me super happy!!
Now April is here,so will be the "New Year" as per our traditions.This month used to bring a lot of happiness,get togethers of families,yellow flowers,unniyappams,ah....Though days are going to be hotter,I can feel the numbness of being a grown up!!
Sunday, 20 March 2016
Thursday, 17 March 2016
Cheers :)
At 3,I believed happiness was everywhere and in everybody.
At 5,I believed happiness was to see everything this world just by climbing up my dad's shoulders!
At 6,happiness was when I got to eat my favourite biscuits as snacks .
At 8,happiness was when I won the first district level competition for a painting contest.
At 11, I was on cloud nine, when my parents bought me that cute birthday dress after repeated requests from months before :).
At 13, Oh my evergreen pick hero bicycle!!
At 15,Happiness was all wrapped up in that proud feeling of topping my school.
At 18, The excitement to be able to become an Engineer that too in a Govt college,without burning a hole in my parents emergency funds.
At 19, Finding my way out of innocence of childhood,trying out adventures with friends,late night talks,hostel pranks,cultural,dances :) Sweet!
At 20, It has to be the look returned by the boy I had a huge crush upon,well that made me happy :D
At 21,Securing that first job,happiness was redefined when I saw tears in my amma's eyes!
At 22,I'm sure it was the first salary I earned :D and the independence it bought.
At 25,earning a decent salary and being able to help my dad built our home and I realised money do bring happiness.
At 26, Getting married to "The One, R"
At 26,blush blush...First Kiss,how can I miss that ;).Damn,more than being happy,I was nervous!!
At 29, Holding my little girl before anyone else could have :D,that is the most happiest I have ever felt.I do certainly believe, this cannot be topped off with..:D
At 30,Being here..I know,I can go home to see my girl who will be waiting.I know,I have my mom and dad to take care of me no matter the age.I know,I have a superb hubs waiting for my return.I know,I have a better job that most of the people.The realisation,has made me more humble and happy.So,yes,This moment makes me happy
In response to the IndiSpire Edition 108 : What does happiness mean to you? Do you go looking for happiness?
Tuesday, 15 March 2016
An Ode to February
February brings in a lot of love,as it is the official birthday month at our home :D.My dada,my mom,myself and my little "N" share our birthdays in this month and thus this is very special.We kind of have to compensate for the rest of the birthday less year.This month reminds me of cakes,new dress,food.With "N" arrival,its has changed as now she gets to enjoy all of these. :).In this month
Thanks February for being a reminder of how sweet life can be.!! ;)
- My girl turned 2.She is the most prized gift I ever had.I believed,I almost lost her but then she had to be there,to make me understand a lot of things I had taken for granted.Happy birthday "N"!! :)
- It was my dad and mom birthdays too.I was very happy to be able to be with them to celebrate their birthdays.
- And myself,I turned 30 and it was difficult till now :P.An entire post to follow on that.
Thanks February for being a reminder of how sweet life can be.!! ;)
Friday, 26 February 2016
Yugantha : The end of an epoch.
Well,I been reading
By Author
Irawati Karve,a well know researcher from Burma has written “Yugantha” which is a set of quality essays based on the well known tale of Mahabharatha. She has also written much about other academic and general subjects.She is such a delight to read.
And this is all about ?
A set of essays retelling the epic,”Mahabharata”,in such a way that it does create a set of doubts on its authenticity!A thought provoking read,retold in such a way to create strong doubts about the tale.The book consists of essays which are critiques of different characters such as Gandhari, Kunti, Draupadi, Karna and Krishna etc which is based on the oldest available editions of Mahabharata,which itself helps us to wane of many side stories which might have been added later on as part of culture or traditions.
So, how was it ?
A must read for those who are interested in history and also for those with inquisitive minds,who would have had hundreds of questions while hearing the stories from their grand parents or parents.Once read through these essays,the author was able to cast a shadow of doubt in my mind about the authenticity of the characters presented.At some point of time,it did occur to me that the tale is not entirely fictious. A different set of thoughts bubbled up in me about the various characters in the tale,while reading through the essays which was certainly not what I had presumed or heard or told to me.
All the characters were stripped of their godliness only to be interpreted as humans with all the character flaws .The author did manage to dig deep into them and present the facts.
My personal favourite read from the lot was related with Bhisma and Draupadi.
Extra Notes : A more poetic and sensual read would be Randamoozham by MT,which is also retelling of the same tale from “Bhima’s “point of view.
Thursday, 18 February 2016
One Lovely Blog Award
Whoaaaaa..I am nominated for my first award and coincidently its the day when I gad completed a year of random musings about my journey,here!!.My heartfelt, thanks to "The Girl Behind the Glasses" for considering me for this Lovely award :).I wish Adhi,all the very best in her blogging journey.If you have not checked out her,do it now as its loaded with a lot of love.
7 Facts about me :
- I am a Software Engineer :),completing almost 8 years in the industry and I absolutely love it here!
- I love a rainy-cloudy-windy day.First the clouds gathering,then the winds blowing and the rain drops spluttering everywhere,all at once.Its heavenly!!
- I can fall asleep,anywhere, in matter of seconds,which is what my husband is most jealous about,haha..
- I hate coffee,cold drinks,soda,milk,tea but absolutely love drinking loads of water!!
- I kind of have a weird fascinations towards trees.I love trees all green and vibrant or all brown,dried and branched out.They tell me stories.Oh,I do love leaves and flowers as well.
- I still love watching Tom and Jerry,Donald Duck,The Duck Tales :D
- I am married to the most amazing person and I have a daughter,who is turning two this month!! :)
And my nominees are:
- Passionate Ambika
- Literature is my Porn
- The Chaos Within
- Some Thoughts,Many Words
- The Tea Cerebrations
- Worldly Words
- Love, Life and Whatever
- Udayology
- Life As A Potpourri
- The Learning Curve
- The Parashar's Palette
- Editions of Green Boochi
- The Glass Bangle
- TRANQUIL yet Alive
- Dew Drops
To accept:
1. Thank the person who nominated you and include a link to their blog.
2. List the rules and display the award.
3. Add 7 facts about yourself.
4. Nominate 15 other bloggers and…
5. Leave a comment on one of their posts to let them know they have been nominated.
Monday, 8 February 2016
Monday Blues!
How true is this quote ?This one quote is all needed to remind us that we need to wake up from the dream slumber we put ourselves in.All those things,we keep saying to ourselves we will do and then at some point of time,we are certain that we did it,and then wait for stellar results.
This quote is that one big kicka$$ reminder!! :D
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